Yep, that's right new chemo again, for those of you who don't know yet. After the first three weeks of the Xeloda my markers remained unchanged from 118 to 119. Dr. C decided to step it up a bit and added Cytoxan oral chemo and Avastin IV chemo to the Xeloda. He decreased the Xeloda to 3 pills a day instead of the 8. This first week was kind of rough with headaches and fatigue. I should be used to the fatigue by now but it's different with each type of chemo. I'm tired of getting headaches, those are getting old. Today my headache got worse because I took the kids to the Cairo pool for a couple of hours and the sun got to me. I want to keep it as normal as possible around here but I'm afraid this regimen may be harder than the last.
I just started a new book today, "This Time's a Charm" by Donald Wilhelm. It's about a guy who has had cancer 5 times. He has lymphoma that keeps coming back. He has a great attitude and positive outlook. I'm anxious to finish it. Even though he has a different kind of cancer, there are so many similarities, I feel like I'm going right along with him through so much of it. I had kind of sidelined the thought of writing my book after this 3rd bout began but he has convinced me to start it back up.
I want to share a quote I read in a book the other night. It's from Living Beyond Breast Cancer by Marcia Weiss and Ellen Weiss. She says, "You can wake up each morning and worry about dying, or you can wake up each morning and celebrate living. Before you know it, several years may have passed. Do you want to waste that time with mourning or use your time to celebrate?" This is something her oncologist said to her. It really hits home after hearing that the medical side opinion of my situation is 1-4 years with what they have to treat me with right now. I plan on blowing that out of the water with whatever I have to do. The days I don't feel good are harder to be positive but the good days I feel like I can do anything!
Hope everyone has a good week! Heather.
Thursday, May 28, 2009
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Heather,
Just after reading your blog entry, I saw the magnet I bought at your scrapbooking event - Deuteronomy 31:6 - "Be strong and courageous! Do not panic before them. For the Lord your God will personally go ahead of you. He will neither fail you nor abandon you."
You are doing just that! You're being strong, even when you don't feel like it, (like taking your children to the pool.) You're being courageous - when you choose to read positive things and choose to live life each day even when things aren't going well - (like a number count). God will not fail you, Heather!
Also, know that many prayers are going up on behalf of you and for you and your family. God has begun a good work in you and He's not finished yet.
Trena Boshart
Your road may seem a little more bumpy now but the love and support will jump to the next level too and be there for WHATEVER we can do.
Now get to work on that book so we can travel the world with it and give other cancer patients hope!! :)
Love ya!! Laurie
BOOK????!!!!! I hear Oprah calling!!!!!
Heather, I'm not buying that 1-4 year thing.... We are going to be sitting on my porch 20 years from now laughing about how you kicked cancers ass and proved all those doctors wrong!
Keep you chin up missy...you are one loved girl!
Sonya
PS...watch out Oprah...here we come!
I Love your ATTITUDE cause that says all!!! I can't even imagine how hard it is to keep things normal around your home but you sure do a great job at it. Whatever it is that is working for you keep doing it! The books, the diet, the cleansings, but I personally think it's what you are made of, what's inside of you that keeps you going, the strength, the faith, the will to want to kick this in the ass is awesome! God Bless you and I will always keep you in prayer! Always here for you Heather, Matt, Tanner, Cauy, Sage and Ellie too:)
Heather,
Reading your blogs have given me so much inspiration and one of them is to live each day to the fullest, enjoy the little things in life and to do things for others. You are a great mom, wife, friends, sister and woman and I know that you are fighting this disease with everything you have. If there is anything that I can do to help let me know. I would like to do more if I can. Just know that there are a lot of people out there praying and thinking of you. We all know just how powerful prayer can be.
Stacie Sich
Heather I loved the quote from the book you put on your blog! WOW does that really stike a cord and it should for everyone!! thanks for being so inspiring and never forget how many people love you and are praying for your health and strength for your family.
Love,
Mindy
Heather, I send blessings your way often as I am out running. It is a great time to send peace to people. It also reminds me as I'm struggling to keep going during a long run to remember that people who triumph during adversity do so because they push themselves to limits they never thought imaginable. You are living rather than existing which is a lesson so many of us can learn from and apply to our own lives. You go, girl!
You are an inspiration Heather. I get frustrated and feel like I can't handle taking the triplets and Aubrey to the pool. You are to be commended for doing so much and I love the bible verse mentioned in the first posters comment. I agree, write the book and spread your inspiration! Praying for you and your family, Sarah
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